letting go of trust

Let me go. Let me hang on a little more, please. The challenges of trust reflected my old self stating, “I don’t know what to do, I don’t trust myself." It was spoken with an interest to change that belief I held of myself; I wanted to trust myself again. When you have abandoned yourself, trust even with the person you have been with every second of your entire life, yourself, can still create internal doubt where you just don’t know. Oftentimes, internal doubt is underlying fear. Fear that things will not go the way we may hope they go or plan them to go. The challenge then is to intimately open to the feeling. Feeling it, allowing it to pass through like watching a movie in my mind's eye. Until the point the still-framed moments of my life decisions flash together in a way where an inner understanding releases a long-held belief that no longer serves me. The belief that I cannot trust myself washes away. My body and mind internalize a new understanding that trust is always present. A truth has never changed, the truth that I could trust myself; it was only the held belief that told me I couldn’t. Beliefs can change when you change. Relax in the knowing that you are trustworthy and you can trust yourself. entry#ssc003